To play is to pause

On a cassette player you can find one button for play and pause. When you want to pause the tape you push the button and when you want to resume you push it again. It’s quite an interesting little metaphor for what I have done.

The soundtrack of my life was flowing along with an almost mellow repetitive melody. It had a strong bass beat that melted you into your chair accompanied by the gloomy hollow sound of the French horn playing in D minor. This tune met its timely demise two and half weeks ago. (This is where the metaphor comes into play.) I had to put that part of me on pause while simultaneously putting another part into play. This new part carried the same repetitive nature but was livelier and had the strong sound of a trumpet playing lead. No longer in the minor key, the tune changed cascading into a full robust major key. It signaled the triumphant arrival of a job. This meant money and an end to the struggles that I was having previously.

The job, though some would consider humbling, was working at a Girl Scout camp for a week as a cook. You may laugh, but I got near 40 hours at $13/hr. Compared to the wasting my time I had done previously this summer this was infinitely better. You see, I need $1300, in addition to what I already have stored in the great monetary institutions of our society (aka. bank), for this upcoming school year to cover rent and food.

The really interesting part is that during the week I was working there I continued to apply for jobs in within 2 days I had 4 possible job offers. Keep in mind that I have been applying since April and have had zero, zip, zilch, nada offers until now. I picked the most promising and best paying one and I still have one of them on hold. I’m waiting for them to get back to me and if they do it will be higher pay than the one I am at now and it will be on campus so I can hold the position during the school year and fund my wealthy appetite.

The job that I have now is in a cabinet making shop in Wisconsin. It’s repetitive work and the work environment is loud (auditory safety is key) but it is entertaining and I like to build things. That seems to be the theme in my life right now, repetition. Everything seems the same and I feel like I am slowly being dipped into the adult whirl pool of death. I go through the same routine pretty much everyday and have the same thing to look forward to tomorrow with a slight break on the weekend which I don’t always spend in the most awake condition. I find myself realizing that I can’t live like that. It is really making me contemplate what I want out of my life and where I see myself in 5, 10, 20 years from now. To cure that fear for now, I have joined the University of Minnesota Water-ski and Wakeboard Club. This looks to be a “sweet ass” time. I can’t say I’m looking forward to skiing on the Mississippi, but I think that we are in a part that is not polluted to the point where scum won’t even live there. Aside from the possible carcinogens I will be exposed too, this should improve my abilities as a wake boarder, skier, and a ski jumper (as for I have never done this).

I’m starting to run out of things to say so this is normally a good point to stop. Look to the future for what I will be doing with this website and other internet related items. Planning to post my pic on hot or not, updates on that whenever. Also JR Computer Associates, Inc. is a done deal and we are open for business. If anyone is looking for professional web design or competitive, reliable and customer service oriented hosting then send me an Email at Richard@shatteredcube.com and I’ll get back to you as soon as possible.

Until then go shatter a cube

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